..."In my own little corner, in my own little chair, I can be whatever I want to be..."
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Am I Really That Depressing?
The other day, I was having a online chat with someone and I mentioned to her that I had been having a bad month. It seems sometimes that when bad things rain, they pour! She said that she had been having a bad day and mentioned it to a friend and that said friend brought her over a cookie bouquet to cheer her up.
"Wow!", I thought, "Why don't I get things like that?" Then, I mentioned to her that I had put on my Facebook account how I was having a bad week and really could use some positive comments or something to cheer me up. But I didn't get one person that bothered to respond or even give me a "its ok, I hear you---hang in there" kind of message.
She replied that it seemed like I was always having a rough time, so why was it different this week---maybe thats why no one responded.
Ok....so this comment really hit me hard.
I started to think about it and wonder if I am just turning into my Dad---always gloom and doom. (sorry Dad, but you are that way sometimes...) Is it true that when I talk about my life, that I never talk about the positive things? Am I so wrapped up in my own misery that I don't reach out to others who need some uplifting? My husband says that I am negative, and I always thought that I was a realist....
Maybe he is right...
...And that scares the pa-hookeys out of me!!
No wonder I don't have many friends. No wonder my children are all scared of me. No wonder I am not understood in California. (you have to live there to know what I mean) No wonder I should be living in NYC. (the town with all the B**ahs)
Well, I am turning a new leaf.
This next Sunday, when someone asks me how things are going, I am going to reply, (with a big ole grin) "Great---never better!" Then, when I talk to cashiers at the store, I will always smile and tell them that I am having a great day when they ask. I am going to put positive things on my blog from now on instead of going off about things that bug me about my life.
I am going to start to be positive, dang it!! Because, after all, I have a lot to be happy about. I have an amazing husband, an adorable eight year old at home, four grown fantastic children, four adorable G-babies, a roof over my head, a lot of clothes and shoes and more talents than most people! (I say this in all humility...)
So, if I'm not positive, I want you to remind me. Nicely, of course, and tactfully, because it takes a while to change and make something into a habit.
I'm already feeling better about myself. I am planning on going merrily throughout every day, grinning from ear to ear and spreading positive cheer everywhere!