Stress Is Now My Middle Name

Have you ever wondered what the most stressful things are that you go through in your life? Well---apparently, I am going through about three of them----at once.

One of them is losing a job. Yep, we are there.

Another one is moving. Shouldn't they also add that we have NO place to move to, as Bret has to have a job before they will let us close on the house? Hmmm....how picky of them....
So----yep, we are there with that one.

A change in financial state is another one. Well---what else would you call trying to live off of unemployment----duh. Not to mention that I have only had my own theater for a bit over a year---so am still extremely stressed about making it work.

Now....I am not going through a divorce----well, not yet, anyway.... And there has been no death in the family----thank goodness----I count my blessings for that one. And I haven't been confined to jail, so I guess I am safe for that one. Another stress is an illness or injury----and well, I guess that I can count that one too, as Bret just got over that....remember?

Believe it or not, the other one is marriage. Go figure. I guess it is just all the preparation, etc. that is stressful.



I only wish that this was my problem.....

Dire Circumstances

I have been putting off writing this blog.

I haven't wanted to take credit for being a big fat loser and not writing or reading blogs lately.

But, I felt that I had to explain.


I am in dire circumstances these days....


The past three weeks, or so, I have been juggling two shows at my theatre. Doing tech rehearsals, programs, final costuming, etc., etc. for one show and starting blocking on the next show. I have also been continuing to teach voice lessons, doing my church job, having three birthdays in a row, trying to find time to keep the house clean, keep Aydan on track at school, do a few gigs, work on marketing for upcoming shows, etc. and make a meal once in awhile.

Add to this mix my hubby getting laid off work at the same time, and well...........need I say more?

Stress with a capital "S"!

I actually lost my voice last week----and it wasn't from too much singing---that's for sure. Nope, it was from the stress and lack of sleep. (Did I mention that I started having hot flashes again?-----ugh.)


Now, I knew that this was going to be a hard time for me. Yes, I was prepared for it. After all, I did it to myself-----its my theatre and my decisions for when shows are being put together----- but I realized that I HAD to do it, and there was no one else to carry it out....except me! Does that make sense to any of you out there?


So, again, I have to apologize. I absolutely ADORE reading so many of your blogs----you know who you are! You take me to another world, so I don't have to think about mine for a little while----for this I thank you all out there....but I know that I haven't been AT ALL good at reading OR writing for the past few weeks, and for this, I feel really bad.

I am determined to get through this. I love writing on my blog and would not give it up for the world. I have been doing this for over 4 years now, and look at this blog as a bit of cathartic medicine, in a way----I need it to get through....


I will get on track, I just know it. But, be patient with me and please don't leave me when I need all of you the most right now!


Much love,
Swanee.